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I am 18, I have a close to full time job, I go to school full time at a community college, plan on going away next year and I have a social life most days... but for months I have been whining that i didn't have a boyfriend and I wanted intimacy and a male companion to just be mine. Normal I know but I have some sort of weirdness where I have to chase a guy for me to stay interested but then I don't like when those assholes actually hurt me. So I thought I was getting over this problem I started liking the "nice guys" and I actually got too far in with one. I told him I liked him which was dumb because he was just hurt by a girl who led him on for three years so now I have the pressure to not hurt him, we also have a mutual friend couple who are so excited that we may be getting together -more pressure, my parents are excited we are "talking" (((even more pressure))) and now I don't think we have as much in common as I thought. He is a country boy and I mean I can fit in with that crowd some days but it is annoying to have that all the time and OMG I can think of so many reasons not to date him now but I am the only one who sees this. I will really never have a boyfriend again the way I am going. I am picky.... Anyway anyone know how I can let everyone in this mess of my life down about my recent change of heart??? Message me back and why don't you tell me if you have ever felt this way so I don't feel so alone...

When I was younger I had a dream that I was in my backyard all by myself but my entire family was over (extended included). All the women other than myself were in the kitchen (you can see how old fashioned my upbringing was) and the men were off in the distance fishing/hunting or doing some stereotypically male thing. But while I was by myself I was watching rabbits hop through my yard (very childlike and innocent dream) but then one of the rabbits turned into some type of wild cat and pounced up and killed me. 

That was a weird one but I also had a very weird, very detailed and very terrifying dream two summers ago that I actually woke up with tears in my eyes. It was creepy. But I will give a little background info for this one... I was working at a camp. I worked in the camp store and the manager just quit leaving me (16 at the time in charge). I had been given a 14 year old boy as my helper and I didn't know him too well at the time. So on my break right before lunch I went to my cabin to take a nap and the dream started with the boy, my friend sam (asst. program director), and myself in the store. An adult leader came in and was yelling at sam for something that wasn't his fault. I got angry and started yelling at the leader and managed to throw some curse words his way and he said he would tell my dad. Now my dad (the camp director) has a rule about altercations with adult leaders and that is that he will try to defend us his best if he is aware of the situation so it was crucial that I get to him before the leader gets to him. So I left the store leaving the 14 yr old in charge who at that point was somewhat clueless and when I got to my dad's cabin it was like a waiting room with many people including the scout master I had just verbally assaulted. Time passed and  the guy got to speak to my father first so I ran back to check on my new assistant. When I got back he was there and the manager who had quit was there holding a baby and then she started screaming and saying we needed to go to the hospital and I was not aware why but I just went. We then got in a taxi (weird because this camp is in the middle of nowhere) and some old lady beside me kept trying to steal my things. As we got to the hospital there was a ton of people outside. Most were crying and saying goodbye to loved ones who looked dead and then there was coffins ready for people to die. We went in and then I was put into a bed. This is when I realized for the first time something was wrong with me. The people I had came with all disappeared and then I was just waiting when my brother came in my room and said goodbye. This makes me think i was going to die. That is where the dream ended because in real life there was banging on the door. I woke up in tears answered the door and found out I had slept through lunch and needed to get back to the store.

Another dream that isn't so weird but what happened in real life was weird was a dream I had (again at summer camp where my sister's dog ate a snake and then I told her about it and a few hours later my brother calls my sister and tells her he had a dream that a snake ate daisy (the dog).

Those are my three.  

   

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